Had a lot planned today but didn’t end up doing anything. Ended up setting up this site. I want to be more decisive and just do it. Like don’t sit and think forever. But seems like I made a mistake in getting this site!
Anyway, Togaru released a new video today. Felt a bit depressed.
Is Nakanishisan okay? His tweets sounds depressive. But at least he has music so he’s okay.
Anyway, felt depressed so ended going for my first drum practice today. 霞の向こう is waaaaaaaay harder than 誘波 but I think coz it’s more nuanced.
I really like this song by Hyuga. I found it last year… I guess ever since then, I wish it was a song that he would feel about me. But that’s really just a fantasy….
Phooi Wah asked me today: “How are you feeling embracing a new year?”
And I guess my answer is the same. I’m always negative about this year… I don’t think anything will change… it’s all going to be just the same. But I guess, there’s a hope in me that something would change.
I mean I guess the one thing I learned from last year was that… wow, sometimes life can really be unexpected, coz never in my wildest dream would I have thought that last year would turn out the way it did.
so maybe somewhere inside me, I do hope that for this year too. That something would change. Something GOOD would happen this year.
but who knows right?
But I really do think that meeting Togaru and Kou right at the end of 2021, really, it really showed me that God can and do hear and sometimes even with so little time left, God gives. Gives beyond what we expected and imagine.
Robbie said today too: “The future is what we make it”.
it’s been such such such a long time since I’ve heard such a line.
Having grown up and grown old, I just feel there’s no future left to make, not like when in our youth it seems like our whole lives was ahead of us…
but I suppose he’s right.. the future still is what we make it.